| | wow so it's been one year since i've came back from china.
one year living with my parents, basically unemployed, unmotivated, unsuccessful, and flat out broke beyond all belief.
in this last year i've reached the lowest that i can possibly go (b/c i know chances are, i'm not going to become a street kid or homeless or fall into a spiraling addiction of drugs and alcohol) and for the first time in my life, wracked up a $1000 credit card debt with no possible idea of how to pay that off (haha, yeah, i know to some of u, $1000 of credit card debt is nothing, but considering i've made it a point to never have debt before in my life)... and on top of that, i passed the big 25 and became 26 (it matters, trust me).
by society's standards, a mid 20's guy living at home with his parents, unemployed, and wasting a good majority of his life playing video games is well, basically a failure.
i prefer to call this past year a sabbatical from life. ;P
who knew you could learn so much by not doing sometimes.
in this past year, i've learned just how truly important it is to always be giving to your friends, to your family, and to yourself. i learned to stop seeing what i don't have in life, but to truly start seeing and being grateful for what i do have in my life... i've gained so much wisdom from reading the words of those who were in exactly my same position. i've had the time and the sleep to face some of the demons in my closet. i've inspired and been inspired by friends and discovered a new spirituality and relationship with God that's taken me far away from what was comfortable only to discover that what i wanted was where i was all along.
most of all, i think i've discovered my true passion in life (and no, it's not something cliche like acting, if that's what you're thinking)... and at age 26, i'd say i'm ahead of schedule. ;P
would i have learned all this if i was working a 40 hr job on the weekdays and then spending my free time partying on the weekends? maybe. but i know that the way things turned out was by God's best.
i still look at some of my 19 yr. old friends and envy their lives and
what they have at their age. i sometimes wish my parents were a little
bit more savvy about things so that they could have passed on more
wisdom of how to just live life to me. i look at some of my friends
who are already very successful and wish that circumstances in my life
was more like theirs so that i wouldn't have been so far behind in my
own.
but i've also learned that those things don't matter at all in the end. i don't admire people who make six digit figures or who have travelled the entire world by the strength of their own will... but i know i admire those who give and give freely, not b/c they feel they should or they expect something in return, but genuinely from their own heart.
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